Nak Stay Kisas?

Some of my friends had asked me, "Kau nak stay tak?"-that's means, to take STAM in Kisas.

Then, I'll answer, "Entahlah, tengok la nanti".

Actually, since my primary school, I was very interested to further my study in Islamic study. Once I had entered SMAKJ, I had planned to go to al-Azhar. I told all my friends (that asked me) that I wanted to stay at that school until form 5. Then, I'll enter Maahad Johor after SPM to take STAM. Then, I prefer to go al-Azhar instead to local university.

That's my plan. My first plan.

All of my siblings further their studies in Islamic or Arabic Courses when they entered university (except one of them). I could imagine the path if I continue my study in the same course.

I want to go al-Azhar, but I have problem with it.

From what I know, Arabic or Islamic study using memorizing skills in learning method, as the main method.

Every year, the students of al-Azhar had to memorise at least 2 juz of al-Quran.

I had a problem with it. I didn't confident that I could do it - that's also the reason why I didn't like Biology and History subjects and why I didn't choose doctor as my ambition...I like more in Physics and Maths-.

This had made me thinking for the second time. I couldn't take it. My heart didn't support me to do so.

Of course I had to find something that suitable for me.

Then, my application to Kisas is accepted. So, I went to Kisas.

Started when I decided to study in Kisas, I had changed my plan to further in Sciences or Social Studies.

After SPM, I had planned to further in engineering (maybe mechanical). So, when I got IIU, I decided to go there.

My ambition is to be a lecturer (or teacher), so I could choose any course that I want. However, I've to make sure that I could get MA and PhD in the course also.